The games in which you play are enough to make my skin crawl.
I try to, despite the battles deep in my mind, to stoop to your levels.
However, you always have a comeback,
I’m just left here, slapped in the face with what actions you have just performed.
You always leave me thinking,
You always leave me fearful.
I don’t know what to tell you anymore.
Everyday I can tell that you have changed and I’m just amazed that you actually once were the person I had met.
It seems like I met you an eternity ago.
It seems as though you can read me inside and out, and yet, I know nothing about you.
Sometimes, I just want to say I hate you so much, but I can’t find it in myself to do so.
You are a stranger.
I wish we can go back to the times in which we were so carefree it was sickening.
Where our most complex problem was figuring out what we were going to do that weekend.
I miss the simplicity and innocence that came along with my childhood, and left as quickly as it had come.
I miss the person you lead me to believe was you.
Even if that person were fake, I would still prefer that to what you are now.
It was like you were wearing some sort of a mask when I met you, a mask that kept me away from everything that you actually were.
Your petty strategies you use to make me like you used to work,
But now it just fills me with a feeling of unending anxiety.
I don’t comprehend why you believe it would be so hard for me to like you the way you were.
The web of lies you have spun ever since the day I have met you are getting old,
But I don’t know what to say.
It seems as though so long ago we were children,
Saying stupid things,
Making stupid faces.
It wasn’t too long, though.
Life got in the way, just like the confusion you have caused me.
You give me headaches, and you always keep me on my toes
Yet, you keep me hesitant.
I cannot tell what the connotations to your words mean.
They all blend together, into one big contradiction
That you wrap yourself in every night.
I don’t know how to act, and I’m actually shocked.
I’m shocked that I tried so hard to make you like me.
I’m shocked that you’ve changed so drastically in so little time.
I’m shocked that I actually fell for all if it.